day 1,
there’s something about hospital lights and how they make everything seem traslucent and unreal and i swear i don’t remember anything, but the feeling of unreality. you can’t be gone. no. things like that don’t really happen. not in real life anyway.
day 3,
i should have bought that black dress we saw when we we went to the pier. the one i have is too sexy. and you’re not around to tell me - there’s no such thing.
day 4,
i hate funerals. you’re not here to hold my hand. why did they close the casket? i wish i could see your face.
day 7,
my mother tells me i should eat something.
day 8,
is alcohol food?
day 11,
i haven’t slept in three days. i don’t want to ruin the smell of our bed. it still smells like you. like us.
day 14,
my mother washed the sheets while i was asleep on the couch. i kicked her out. i miss you. no, i don’t want to call her. yes, i will.
day 15,
the guy at the coffee shop asked me where you were today. i said you were on a trip, coming back in a week. it didn’t feel like a lie.
day 21,
our lease is almost up. i don’t know what to do. i can’t think.
day 22,
i’m keeping the apartment.
day 23,
i’m moving out.
day 24,
i can’t move out. it’s our apartment.
day 28,
i extended the lease. no name on it. it feels wrong. all of this feels wrong. come back.
day 30,
it’s been a month. i called your mother. she cried. your dad said to stop calling for a while.
day 35,
your parents want your things back.
day 36,
i can’t bring myself to empty your side of the closet.
day 37,
your shirts still smell like you.
day 38,
my therapist said to stop texting you. apparently it’s bad for me. i told her you dying was pretty crappy. she didn’t think it was funny. maybe i’m losing it.
day 58,
i still miss you every day.
day 65,
500 days of summer came out. i don’t want to watch it without you.
day 80,
i watched it. you would have hated it.
day 100,
i hate christmas.
day 101,
i’m hungover. i miss you. i can’t stop crying. my head hurts.
day 150,
i met someone. i hate that i like him. i hate that he makes me laugh. i hate that you’d think he’s a great guy.
day 170,
we had sex. i cried after.
day 200,
he found a photo of us. said it’s about time i move on. we broke up.
day 201,
i still miss you. i don’t miss him. but you’re not here.
day 270,
i got a haircut. i hate it. i look like a chipmunk.
day 271,
maybe it’s not that bad. it works from some angles.
day 302,
happy anniversary baby.
day 303,
i’m a mess. i hate you for leaving me like this.
day 304,
i don’t hate you. i’m sorry. i love you. i miss you.
day 350,
i quit. i hated that place anyway.
day 357,
i asked for my job back. it wasn’t so bad.
day 365,
i spent the whole day on your bench. now i understand why families make them.
day 370,
i’m moving out.
day 371,
i’m moving in with him. i’m sorry.
day 463,
i still miss you, but sometimes i forget.
day 500,
i’m engaged.

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do you ever get in one of those moods where you’re like feeling okay but you’re really sad at the same time and you just want to talk to someone and make them hug you but you feel annoying so you kind of just sit there being really sad

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i secretly like getting assigned seats in school because it takes away that awkward “i have no friends in this class where the fuck am i gonna sit” factor

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look at all this shenanigans you can ask me

  • 200:My crush's name is:
  • 199:I was born in:
  • 198:I am really:
  • 197:My cellphone company is:
  • 196:My eye color is:
  • 195:My shoe size is:
  • 194:My ring size is:
  • 193:My height is:
  • 192:I am allergic to:
  • 191:My 1st car was:
  • 190:My 1st job was:
  • 189:Last book you read:
  • 188:My bed is:
  • 187:My pet:
  • 186:My best friend:
  • 185:My favorite shampoo is:
  • 184:Xbox or ps3:
  • 183:Piggy banks are:
  • 182:In my pockets:
  • 181:On my calendar:
  • 180:Marriage is:
  • 179:Spongebob can:
  • 178:My mom:
  • 177:The last three songs I bought were?
  • 176:Last YouTube video watched:
  • 175:How many cousins do you have?
  • 174:Do you have any siblings?
  • 173:Are your parents divorced?
  • 172:Are you taller than your mom?
  • 171:Do you play an instrument?
  • 170:What did you do yesterday?
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  • 169:Love at first sight:
  • 168:Luck:
  • 167:Fate:
  • 166:Yourself:
  • 165:Aliens:
  • 164:Heaven:
  • 163:Hell:
  • 162:God:
  • 161:Horoscopes:
  • 160:Soul mates:
  • 159:Ghosts:
  • 158:Gay Marriage:
  • 157:War:
  • 156:Orbs:
  • 155:Magic:
  • [ This or That ]
  • 154:Hugs or Kisses:
  • 153:Drunk or High:
  • 152:Phone or Online:
  • 151:Red heads or Black haired:
  • 150:Blondes or Brunettes:
  • 149:Hot or cold:
  • 148:Summer or winter:
  • 147:Autumn or Spring:
  • 146:Chocolate or vanilla:
  • 145:Night or Day:
  • 144:Oranges or Apples:
  • 143:Curly or Straight hair:
  • 142:McDonalds or Burger King:
  • 141:White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate:
  • 140:Mac or PC:
  • 139:Flip flops or high heals:
  • 138:Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor:
  • 137:Coke or Pepsi:
  • 136:Hillary or Obama:
  • 135:Burried or cremated:
  • 134:Singing or Dancing:
  • 133:Coach or Chanel:
  • 132:Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks:
  • 131:Small town or Big city:
  • 130:Wal-Mart or Target:
  • 129:Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler:
  • 128:Manicure or Pedicure:
  • 127:East Coast or West Coast:
  • 126:Your Birthday or Christmas:
  • 125:Chocolate or Flowers:
  • 124:Disney or Six Flags:
  • 123:Yankees or Red Sox:
  • [ Here's What I Think About ]
  • 122:War:
  • 121:George Bush:
  • 120:Gay Marriage:
  • 119:The presidential election:
  • 118:Abortion:
  • 117:MySpace:
  • 116:Reality TV:
  • 115:Parents:
  • 114:Back stabbers:
  • 113:Ebay:
  • 112:Facebook:
  • 111:Work:
  • 110:My Neighbors:
  • 109:Gas Prices:
  • 108:Designer Clothes:
  • 107:College:
  • 106:Sports:
  • 105:My family:
  • 104:The future:
  • [ Last time I ]
  • 103:Hugged someone:
  • 102:Last time you ate:
  • 101:Saw someone I haven't seen in awhile:
  • 100:Cried in front of someone:
  • 99:Went to a movie theater:
  • 98:Took a vacation:
  • 97:Swam in a pool:
  • 96:Changed a diaper:
  • 95:Got my nails done:
  • 94:Went to a wedding:
  • 93:Broke a bone:
  • 92:Got a peircing:
  • 91:Broke the law:
  • 90:Texted:
  • [ MISC ]
  • 89:Who makes you laugh the most:
  • 88:Something I will really miss when I leave home is:
  • 87:The last movie I saw:
  • 86:The thing that I'm looking forward to the most:
  • 85:The thing im not looking forward to:
  • 84:People call me:
  • 83:The most difficult thing to do is:
  • 82:I have gotten a speeding ticket:
  • 81:My zodiac sign is:
  • 80:The first person i talked to today was:
  • 79:First time you had a crush:
  • 78:The one person who i can't hide things from:
  • 77:Last time someone said something you were thinking:
  • 76:Right now I am talking to:
  • 75:What are you going to do when you grow up:
  • 74:I have/will get a job:
  • 73:Tomorrow:
  • 72:Today:
  • 71:Next Summer:
  • 70:Next Weekend:
  • 69:I have these pets:
  • 68:The worst sound in the world:
  • 67:The person that makes me cry the most is:
  • 66:People that make you happy:
  • 65:Last time I cried:
  • 64:My friends are:
  • 63:My computer is:
  • 62:My School:
  • 61:My Car:
  • 60:I lose all respect for people who:
  • 59:The movie I cried at was:
  • 58:Your hair color is:
  • 57:TV shows you watch:
  • 56:Favorite web site:
  • 55:Your dream vacation:
  • 54:The worst pain I was ever in was:
  • 53:How do you like your steak cooked:
  • 52:My room is:
  • 51:My favorite celebrity is:
  • 50:Where would you like to be:
  • 49:Do you want children:
  • 48:Ever been in love:
  • 47:Who's your best friend:
  • 46:More guy friends or girl friends:
  • 45:One thing that makes you feel great is:
  • 44:One person that you wish you could see right now:
  • 43:Do you have a 5 year plan:
  • 42:Have you made a list of things to do before you die:
  • 41:Have you pre-named your children:
  • 40:Last person I got mad at:
  • 39:I would like to move to:
  • 38:I wish I was a professional:
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  • 36:Vehicle:
  • 35:President:
  • 34:State visited:
  • 33:Cellphone provider:
  • 32:Athlete:
  • 31:Actor:
  • 30:Actress:
  • 29:Singer:
  • 28:Band:
  • 27:Clothing store:
  • 26:Grocery store:
  • 25:TV show:
  • 24:Movie:
  • 23:Website:
  • 22:Animal:
  • 21:Theme park:
  • 20:Holiday:
  • 19:Sport to watch:
  • 18:Sport to play:
  • 17:Magazine:
  • 16:Book:
  • 15:Day of the week:
  • 14:Beach:
  • 13:Concert attended:
  • 12:Thing to cook:
  • 11:Food:
  • 10:Restaurant:
  • 9:Radio station:
  • 8:Yankee candle scent:
  • 7:Perfume:
  • 6:Flower:
  • 5:Color:
  • 4:Talk show host:
  • 3:Comedian:
  • 2:Dog breed:
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I know I probably don’t cross your mind much anymore but I hope someday you see something that reminds you of me and the things we use to spend hours talking about at night and then your throat gets tight and your heart skips a beat and you finally miss me back.

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